Stone Upon Stone In An Allegorical Mental Construct.

To espouse my worldview a little bit more, and to maybe lend more basis to my thought patterns.  I shall try to establish a rundown of my mindset through allegorical terms.  Imagine for an instant a field, a field made of Nothing.  It (the field) is just raw matter, energy, monads, or whatever basis of Reality one so desires/believes.  Said field is clearly already there, but it isn’t suitable to one’s own needs.  Say there’s a boulder the size of one’s Ego in the way that keeps you from building a lovely house there.

Thus our lovely friend Nihilism (in its many forms, and varieties) comes along and says, “Hey your Ego is based upon some arbitrary construct that was conditioned into you.  Your sense of identity, body image, society, and your entire worldview is just make believe.  You’re living a lie my friend.  You aren’t Authentic because you didn’t lay those stones!”

Upon our blunt friend’s assessment, one generally (at least to me) falls into a state of despondency.  A sort of, “Curse you God!  Gott ist Tot!….etc” (shaking fist at supposed Heavens) which is exactly what our bastard buddy Nihilism was trying to do.  Get you to question the assumptions you’ve made in your everyday life.  To, for lack of better terminology, “Wake up”.  Thus our big boulder of an Ego starts to crack, and break.  “Hey”, one thinks in hindsight (clearly hindsight because the throes are an absolute pain), that big ol’ boulder is starting to crumble, and I now have a new clearing in which to raise my OWN edifice!  I don’t have to abide by the construct that was me, but I now am able to play my own game!  I just have to create the system of rules in which I wish to abide!

Now with the image of a plain with broken down chunks of Ego lying about.  One is left with the onerous task of rebuilding their Self-Conception.  One could approach said task as a jigsaw puzzle, “My world used to look like this, so does this piece go here?”, or one can say, “Screw it!  I’m doing Sand Art*! (*insert whatever metaphor you wish)”.

Thus our best of buds Nihilism, who stuck with us through cognitive Hell makes itself known as a way to deconstruct all sorts of notions that we personally don’t agree with.  “Hey that rock looks like your head!”….”Uh no, it’s a keystone!”.  Now we get to play with cognitive relativism.  My thoughts are completely different from your thoughts, but that’s okay.  I actually prefer it that way.  My morals are solely my own, and to pressgang others into following and/or believing in them is actually no different that the constructed world I was just living in.

Building upon the Field of Nothingness, with a Nihilistic reduced Ego.  One can build whatever structure they so wish because the dynamite (Nihilism) is ever so readily at hand.  This is some of the Foundational Logic behind my thoughts.  Building upwards, I’ve attached thoughts from Plato (My Plain is really a Cave, and I was seeing Shadows).  Descartes (Hey guys, looking for more “dynamite”?!  Cogito Ergo Sum).  Kant (If I can do it, Everyone can do it….Categorical Imperative).  And loads more, for this is truly the human condition!  To realize that one was actually suspended above the Abyss of Life on the constructed framework of Other’s Realities/Points of View.

….”I guess it’s a tower to the Heavens we’re building guys…, hopefully that Babel incident doesn’t happen again….”…

Cosmic Playgrounds, and Mental Models.

Well the concept of this post is a little terrifying, and also exhilarating at the same time.  This post deals with the possible notion of a supposed simulated universe.  Before everyone jumps to the Matrix conclusions.  I’d like to veer off from said mythos, and speculate, “What did Neo actually do with the Machine in the Matrix?”.  Did he upload himself into the Matrix once again, or did he become the “New Architect”.  A mastermind who laid the groundwork for a “New Iteration”?  I don’t know for I’m not him, and he’s a fictional character.

Anyways, a thought I’ve been running myself ragged over for awhile now is the notion of “Self-Divinity”.  Yes, yes, claiming to be a deity is full of hubris, arrogance, and a whole host of other problems.  This post is more or less meant as a thought experiment.  Take for instance a notion that as technology becomes more and more advanced leading into a reputed “Technological Omega/Singularity Point”….  what exactly happens (or at least could happen)?  A person could become more, and more embroiled in their personal “worlds/fantasies/self-confirmations”.  That they stop connecting with “Others”.  And a part of me wonders if that is the lauded end goal of “Sentience” (to create more awareness, and better awareness).  A sort of cataclysmic rendering where people are lost to their own worlds.  A branching point in the world (Multiverse?).  After all what are we doing now?  Surrounding ourselves by like minds, and personal preferences.

We are embroiled in the concept of Self, and is this a “bad thing”?  Consider Jung’s concept of Shadow.  It is the aspect that is supposedly refuted by a person, and consists of judgments and the road not taken.  In a sense that’d be our ultimate anti-thesis, and foil.  At least to whoever we think we presently are.  Thus one has to supposedly integrate their shadow, and come to terms with their “repressed side”.  Synthesis of Thesis, and Anti-Thesis to generate a new theorem, correct?  Isn’t this what we already are though?  A Synthesis of a Positive, and Negative elements?  A sort of Feminine and Masculine?  Tao?

Thus what is a person supposed to do?  Realize that they have “all the answers(tm)”, but only for themselves in their own personal context?  Sure, why not?  It’d make sense to reaffirm the Self after attempting what is essentially “Suicide” (destruction of the Self by the Self).  Sure a physical attempt may not have been necessary, but is there a strong difference between some of these constituent parts?

The Self so strongly struggles against its own demise otherwise there wouldn’t be a thing called survival instinct.  Otherwise we’d voluntarily walk into the cannonade of mortality.  The thing is, that I think a person only comes to terms with morality through experiencing mortality.  That it may be a Literal Death, and a Metaphorical Death.  Either of the Self directly, or via proxy (a projected Shadow perhaps?).  In essence we can Die in another entities schema, and/or be declared insane.  Although in our worldview we probably (possibly) are the only sane, and living one.  You know an instinctual response to destroy/deter any information that challenges our mentality.  The cognitive dissonance?

Thus what is Reality?  Is it our own impressions given back to ourselves?  An idea that once comforted me was that maybe, just maybe, I was the center of my own universe (narcissistic as hell perhaps), but the notion was extremely reassuring that whenever there’s a new-birth of a conscious entity.  It is customary to give to the new generation (think of the Children).  They may not look like you, and they may not act like you.  Hell they’ll challenge the shit outta you (feedback up the chain), but in the end they are a product of your own personal model (feedback down the chain).  They’ll have to realize and accept that.  Tear it down as much as they like, and rebuild their own edifice for their own personal utopia.  And then the system continues with their own children.  What’s not to like?  This is what ensures from an evolving/growing system.  A seed-point happens, a progenitor who realizes, “Hey this may work, and it works for me….”…, and the next one to witness/see it gets told to do so (Tradition at that point).

In the end though, these are all mental models, and cognitive edifices built by one self (myself) to make sense of a mutable, and ever-changing reality (supposedly).  The question for everyone who reads this is, “How is your mental model any different for yourself?”.  You take in stimuli from a reputably external (or internal) environment, and you construct the meaning for yourself that you give to yourself.  You build your house upon the foundation laid, and given to you via education either personal (autodidact), or formal (College, K-12…etc).  And yet, you shall live in that house forever.  The decor will change, but in all actuality, does it?