Its been a while since I’ve managed to find time to sprout my thoughts to the internet, so I guess now is a good time. At least good of time as any. The idea is that we each live, and are completely immersed in our own mental idealizations of the world. This isn’t new, but the extent at which I’ve been realizing it just drives the message home even more.
Say for instance that a person is claiming that they’ve done such-n-such thing. One could seek veracity on multiple levels (photo evidence, word of mouth, sight…etc), but in reality does any number of sources actually lend credence to said event. To an extreme skeptic, no. To someone who’s willing to believe, and suspend their own sense of denial. Even if for a moment, then yes, evidence does matter.
Ex; Say for instance that I were to start claiming Divinity as state of personal nature. Clearly the majority of people would start avoiding me, and/or declare me batshit insane. And yet, in a round about manner each, and every one of us does so. Daily. We seek to set our interpretation of world events over that of our prior selves, and over that of others. We rewrite our personal narratives daily, for the events are constantly in flux (so it seems).
Let’s take for instance that Divinization ( https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Divinization_(Christian) ) of being elevated to Sainthood by God is True. We are all co-creators in God’s Project. We’re all Children of God. Thus why is there such a innate revulsion when someone starts mouthing such thoughts publicly (at least in my life, or so I’ve thought/experienced)?
The “Fact of the Matter” is that when one starts claiming special privileges, or narrative rights. They have to have some sort of veracity, or evidence to support their claims.
Ex; A few times within the last couple of months, I was experiencing strange thoughts/memories (delusions I suppose) where I was a U.S. Marine. I was thinking about enlisting, but I’m too old for it. Further thoughts on the matter tie in notions of Temporal Service (Time Travel to a Different Reality…Serve 20 years, and time travel back. Upon doing so, memory erased. You never Served because there’s “no” evidence, or it’s been negated).
Further thoughts upon that idea was a notion that I had reached Brigadier General level of rank within said Service, and this was a strong “Delusion” I had experienced after my “mental breakdown”, and complete loss of identity for a year (circa 2010-11).
I have no proof of any claims for this mindset, and I don’t know why I would develop said mental identification. It’s eerie, but I’m powerless in the sense regarding this because I can’t provide any sort of evidence. Thus I’m rendered “insane”. Even though there have been recent publications about “Time-Crystals”, and other micro-Time-Travel shenanigans in scientific journals (you know it’s going to happen someday now).
I guess the hardest part about this idea is the feeling of isolation, and desolation it brings not being able to know one’s own Reality is “Concrete”. That they may have been such a figure, but then they now aren’t. Although how is this any different than Reincarnation, or a Transcendence to Heaven?
One can’t prove it in any context, it is a matter of Faith. Personally, I feel like this World, despite its “Evils”…is Heaven. Simply because I’m alive, and I know that non-existence is never preferable to Existence. To Exist is Life.